Ben Neumann is mentioned. His contribution in the process was very real. It’s impossible to mention everyone responsible, unless you devote pages to it (as Ryan North did in “To Be or Not to Be: That is the Adventure”) going back to the big bang. Causality and chaos effect and all that.
Ultimately, it’s a balance. Just as in life it can be helpful to share emotional problems with others, it can be helpful to share a creative project with another. Get another perspective.
If you have aspirations or reaching out beyond minds that exactly mirror your own, it can be invaluable to gain an understanding of how others will react. Playtest your games. Perform your songs in public multiple times. Rehearse in front of an audience. Solicit feedback.
At the end of the day, the focus is on us. I can’t expect anyone else to do my marketing, to do my work for me, or to be there each step of the way, tell me what I should be doing and reassure me that it’s within acceptable standards.
I worry that backers will be disappointed with the art.
I worry they’ll be annoyed at the delay.
I believe that at some point in the future, there will be a 2nd edition and it’ll look better. I worry that the ‘early adopters’ who supported me will be annoyed at that.
I think all of that is unavoidable. Designing to displease no-one will result in blandness. Striving for perfection in every line will result in stiffness, uncertainty, and those emotions show through.
The final thing won’t be perfect. Each card will be physically drawn and lettered. Some marks on the page will be questionable but ultimately, everything is. There will be some mistakes that show in the final product.
But it’ll be a reflection of me. To paraphrase, I just need it to be that, honestly, and nothing more.
In the end, I hope that people will like the pictures. I could spend another year doing them, but there will never be any guarantees.
I will still ask for feedback – let folk look over everything before it’s sent to the printers, just in case there are any obvious issues. But I need to trust myself.
Now is the time for me to do work.
Don’t rely on others to guide and support. It may be there. It may not. Some feedback should be ignored. Some should be listened to.
I am the judge. This is my project. People have seen my style and I’m not diverging massively from that.
I need to be confident.
Now is the time.
For me to do it myself.